I need to download the one from 2020 also. it shows I paid to file with turbotax, but the return isn't there
Then you probably used a different account for 2020, or maybe used the CD/download for 2020.
Many people have multiple TT accounts and forget how to access them. Log out of the account you are in now.
Account Recovery
https://ttlc.intuit.com/questions/1901535-forgot-your-turbotax-online-user-id-or-password
https://ttlc.intuit.com/questions/1901486-how-many-turbotax-accounts-do-i-have
Or did you use the desktop version of TurboTax? If so, the files are on your own hard drive or any backup device you used like a flash drive.
https://ttlc.intuit.com/questions/1901659-find-your-tax-data-file-in-mac
https://ttlc.intuit.com/turbotax-support/en-us/help-article/tax-return/find-last-year-tax-data-file-tax-file-computer/L0XJvPaJr_US_en_US?uid=lro5b507