Is having to pay the same as a return

If you mean that when you got to the end and paid the total due amount does that say you did your return, the answer is yes. If this is not the case post more details for a better answer

Generally, most taxpayers are required to file a tax return.  And each tax return will result in either:

• An amount due (you owe the government money) OR
• A refund amount (the government owes you money)